I'm so tired of being sick all the time... I feel like I have become crippled in some horrifying manner with absolutely no reason for it...
Once again stuck at home with a very upset stomach, stressing about how to pay rent.
Somehow it actually managed to get worse and destroy both my social life and my ability to work. Going out is becoming a problem because I'm terrified that my IBS will flare when I'm not near a washroom.
My anxiety is absolutely the worst thing that has ever happened. All I want is to walk outside and enjoy the day. Not worrying that I will die or be robbed or mugged, that would be the best day ever. I don't even remember what it feels like to WANT to leave my home.
Hopefully, one day this will end... For now I will sulk in my hidey hole...
Invisible illness fucking sucks.
