Morning!

Life has been moving along nicely as of late. There is no longer a teenager living in my living room, but there is a teenager who owes me money living elsewhere.

I contacted fixed fur life about my pregnant stray cat that I am takinb care of and they are willing to take her in along with any kittens that don't find homes. Nicki will be staying with Marra and I until the kittens are weaned, then they will be taken to fixed fur life for new homes.

Other than that, my little brother has finally hit the end of his rope. He got caught with weed in his bag, avoiding a drug search by skipping out. He then refused to let then search him, and got himself suspended for a week. When my parents took away his internet and tv privileges, he had a bit of a fit and ran away. He can back long enough to mess up my computer and then after I gave him a good smack and took his laptop, he ran away again. This time he ran away in campbellford... He went to my grandparents place and was told he was not welcome back at home. Apparently he is moving to Oshawa to be with his semi-retarded friend and his friends crackhead mom. I'm giving it a few weeks before he wants to come home.

Other than that, I have my health stuff dealt with mostly. I have a few more things to take care of but otherwise, everything is good. My next big thing is going to be packing my stuff up and getting ready for the big move to Ottawa.

3 days

I'm 3 days away from my 23rd birthday. I know its not a milestone or anything big but it feels big.
I think it's because this is the first year I have really been on my own with no boyfriend living with me to help on rent ect. I mean sure, Marra has been here but sometimes that's more trouble than its worth.
Honestly, I can't wait until I move to Ottawa. It may be happening sooner than originally planned as well. Something like November hopefully. It will be really nice to get out of this town.
School will be hard enough to get underway, but I definitely want to start taking courses in January. I'm thinking of applying for some online courses with my next pay cheque. Just to kind of get a leg up and hopefully make it easier to get into college.
Anyways, I'm going to wrap up the ramble. Just wanted to clear the noise out of my head!

Stressed out!

This week has been nothing but so much stress. I have decided moving to Ottawa will be a much welcomed change from my crappy call center job and my pitiful excuse for an apartment. Between bitchy room mates, Shitty Belleville buses and work pissing me off I want to burn my life to the ground and start again.

I was voluntold today by my work that I would have to come in for an extra 4 hours every weekend. Which is just ridiculous. They screwed up there staffing and thus screwed us. Now they want us to use our own time to be trained which is fucking ridiculous. I am going to be getting a note from my doctor which clearly states I can work no more than 40 hours per week.

Oh! Other big news! I finally got my inside problems diagnosed. I now am the proud own of not only PCOS and Agoraphobia but also IBS or Crohns. So excited.... Not. For the better part of a month it has felt like someone is ripping my guts out through my belly button. Also the constant need to use the washroom is causing my call center job to be a much more difficult. The stress of which makes my insides feel soooo much worse.

Oh and the Belleville transit system. Apparently it is perfectly okay for there buses to just not fucking show up. 'Cause y'know.... It's not like anyone depends on it for there job. I called to complain and was asked to leave my number and a preferred callback time, which I did. So far, no callback and I've been waiting on one since Wednesday.

All in all it was an impressively bad week. Like "I tried to quit my job and they wouldn't let me" kinda week. It can only go uphill from here though.... I hope.

Last day here...

Today is my last day on vacation in Ottawa. I have done so much these past few days, the War Museum, Museum of Science and Technology, Parliament hill, and the National Gallery! I was lucky enough to get to go and see their latest temporary exhibit, Van Gogh : Close Up. It showcased his nature paintings and some of the works he used for references.... Unfortunately, at the National Gallery, you aren't allowed to take pictures of the exhibits, however I did manage to sneak a few pictures and I have tonnes of Parliament Hill.... I have decided I'm in love with this city, it's so much cleaner and prettier than Toronto has ever been. The strange part was there was NO street people.... well, one chick trying to get home, but I don't think that counts. The only thing this place needs is more street vendors, I cannot for the life of me figure out what these people eat when they are shopping, there is no street meat!

All in all it was amazing and I can't wait to move up here, there is far more to do here than in Belleville. You can even see Quebec right from Parliament Hill. Plus I can go to the museums all the time or even just go out for dinner! There are so many malls and restaurants to go to that I would never run out of new places to try!

Next time I am up here I plan on checking out my (hopefully) future campus.... Carleton University. Apparently it's a gorgeous campus, and the programs are awesome.

I'll be headed home to Belleville later today... my bus leaves by 4:30 tonight and I should be home by 8:00 tonight.... It's going to be a super boring bus ride but I will get home soon enough and I should be able to get some dinner started for when Marra gets home....

In Ottawa!

I have made it to Ottawa and am enjoying my trip immensely.... You have no idea how big a city is until you get there.... Everything is so big here... Now I know how bugs must feel when they look at all of our stuff. The buildings are taller, the buses are bigger and even the museums are huge. I went to the War Museum yesterday and had an amazing time. I was forced to buy new shoes because of all the walking that I was doing, but I needed them anyways so it's not a big deal.

I love the view from the balcony were I'm staying, there are huge apartments near by, but you can see all the way into Quebec. I love the bus stations here too.... they are so pretty and red. I wish that I could have my pets with me, and small one too of course. I feel a touch homesick for my bed but otherwise I couldn't be happier.

I am going to see some new stuff on loan at the Art Museum tomorrow, and I'll make sure to get lots and lots of pictures to show everyone. I took hundreds of them so far from the war museum and travelling... I can't wait to go exploring tomorrow. Today is the day I am taking off, I might explore the trails later on as well....

Here are some of the pictures I have so far....

Almost time

First of all I would like to say I am super excited and absolutely terrified. It is only an hour away from me leaving my apartment and starting my journey to the big city of Ottawa. I have never taken a greyhound bus before this in my life and I'm terrified that something is going to go horribly wrong. I think that's because this is the first time I have ever travelled by myself. I am bringing a fully charged phone and my mp3 player to keep me company but I am still definitely very anxious. I wish things were easy for me, like people who can just go out whenever they like and don't have to psych themselves up for it. I also have this impossible nagging feeling that I will forget something, but I am sure everything is packed. Oh well... I will remember what it is when I get there! Anyways... Wish me luck, I am going to need it!

Love today!

Today has been pretty awesome. I found myself a partner to go running with and tomorrow we will be taking a run tomorrow. I am pretty stoked to start running but also kind of terrified that I am not going to be able to make it. I'll have to get a really good sports bra or even a tensor bandage to wrap with.

My mum helped me out a lot by getting my tickets for my bus ride up to Ottawa this month. She is a wonderful woman you know. It turned out to be a lot more expensive than I anticipated but I'll be able to cover it all next pay I'm pretty sure. I can't believe that by the end of this month I will be up in Ottawa exploring and visiting. I'm so excited.

I also found out today that a man that I'm seeing, who will not be be named, bought me a really neat gift.... A 12ct Ruby from Thailand. It's uncut and not that dark red colour you normally see, but it's definitely a Ruby and it's huge. I don't think I would ever want it to be cut and polished, it's very pretty just as it is. I just thought it was very sweet of this man to think of me when he found it. So much better than a ring or necklace, because this is something that not a lot of people have. Plus how cool is it that it's coming all the way out from Thailand!

In other news I am going to be trying out a new recipe for egg rolls and sloppy joes. I'll grab some pictures with the new camera and post the recipes up if I feel they are worth it.

I hope the rest of you have an amazing day like mine! <3

Been Busy

Lately I've been a touch pre-occupied with things and havan't had much time to really update my blog all that often. Good news is that soon I should have interwebs and I will then be able to update this blog every day and work a lot harder on my blog/book. 

Honestly I wish that I did have access to internet, this would be an amazing outlet for my thoughts. Especially with all the housing issues I've been posting out. Yes, believe it or not they are still going on. I do believe my landlords are trying to give me a stroke. 

I cannot wait to get my butt out of that place and move to Ottawa. I've been looking at getting a house with some friends. It makes sense because of the amount of space we'd have plus if you think of cost effectiviness, it's no different than owning an apartment. I have been looking at adds online and I've seen a few really gorgeous places that look like they are well taken care of and that the owners have a lot of pride in. 

I am pleased to annouce as well that I am headache free.... I finally decided it was time to have a little fun and shake it up. I got a 1/4 of mushies and took 2 grams last saturday. It was amazing, gorgeous fractals and intense open eye visuals. The colours reminded me of gasoline in a puddle. They were mainly blue, green, purple and gold but occasionally would change as the geometric patterns and fractals came into and out of focus. I had a great time and like usual found it to be a relaxing and unique experience that was well needed and deserved. I took the mushrooms around 8:30 and most of my visuals if not all had stopped by 10:30, I felt almost completely down by midnight. It was a relatively short trip but definitely visually intense. I didn't experience a whole lot of thought loops or mind tripping, but I did get the giggley/happy effects at the beginning. 

The best side effect of the mushrooms was that I got rid of the constant pressure in my head that I had thought was normal. It has been there for so long I stopped noticing it but once there was relief from it, it made a huge difference. My whole body changed and relaxed. For most of the night after the mushrooms wore off my legs refused to cooperate and standing was challenging as my body adjusted to not being tense. Since then everything has re-oriented itself and I feel amazing. My anxiety about going out has gone down to a mere 2/10 and I have noticed a change in my whole way of looking at things. I find myself less irratable and more motivated to do things. (I suppose not having a headache helps with that.) 

I will definitely be keeping track of my headaches and seeing when they start to come back, however it looks like I may have found a viable treatment for my migraines and tension headaches. I was surprised to find that my anxiety level dropped dramatically. Over night I went from 8/10 to 2/10 and have felt myself feeling far more social than I have been in a long time. I will make sure to keep everyone updated on my headaches and progress, hopefully I have at least a few months without headaches before I have to re-dose. 

In other news, bills are finally getting caught up and I should have them caught up in time to enjoy the events happening this summer. I will be buying my bus ticket for my ottawa trip soon and then hopefully be getting my Rockfest tickets with one of my pays this month. Can't wait! I'll bring back lots of pictures from Ottawa and all the things I get to do to show you all!

Visit with Josie!

I went to see my baby cousin Josie or Jojo today, she is the most beautiful baby I've ever seen. She had dark hair and the same dark blue eyes that I had as a baby.
She has a bit of a rash, but that should clear up soon. You have no idea how much I am going to worship that little girl. All I wanted to do was to hold her close to me and never let her go.

I also got to see my auntie as well. She is doing really well too, her swelling is going down considerably and she isn't in a whole lot of discomfort which is great for just having had a C-section on Monday of this week.

Tomorrow I will shoot her a text message and ask if I can post a picture of the cute little darling on my blog for everyone else to see. I have a feeling I will be visiting family as much as humanly possible. With summer coming I'll be around a lot anyways, especially at the cottage. I assume Josie will be up there with my Auntie since she has a year off for her maternity leave.

In other news I got all my laundry done today, thank goodness for Mums right?! She always complains a little bit but I think she misses doing my laundry just a little bit. Either that or she is afraid I'm going to mess up her washing machine, which is entirely possible. I never was very good with household appliances.

I also managed to get the rest of my photo's that I wanted to put on facebook uploaded. I have managed to clear out a lot of space on my computer from old videos and stuff I didn't need anymore. It's nice to have a little bit more room to work with until I get an external hard drive.

In other news, I'm booking my vacation to Ottawa with my next cheque. I am really excited! I am hopefully going to be checking out the city and seeing what everything in about. Trying out the transit system as well. I am hoping that for next spring I get into Carlton University for there nursing program. However, that means that I have to start doing my online courses pretty soon through Fleming. That just means I need to get my internet up and running at my apartment.

Anymawho, time to chill out for a little while... leave me a comment or something ;)

What's New?

Well I'll tell you, I have been working my little tail off. Marra has started her new job at loyalist and I will hopefully being applying to Fleming very shortly.

I'm also excited to announce that shortly I will be the proud big cousin to the newest addition to the McKinnon family, little Josie is due in like a week and I'm so stoked it's ridiculous. Although I have no desire of any sort to be trapped in the delivery room with my aunt. God knows I adore the woman and she is one of my best friends but the profanity that is going to spill forth from her will probably be enough to make satan cringe. Her date to be induced is next Monday. I'm scrambling to get the day off from work but who knows if I'll actually get it.

I have been baking up a storm this past weekend. I made mini apple pies in my muffin tin and I also made brownies and cinnamini buns (Get it? Tiny cinnamon buns so they are called cinnamini?! hahaha.) Everything turned out fantastic. I am thinking I am going to make some lemon cake this weekend but who knows.

I sent off an email to my landlords today giving them notice that I am filing to the Landlord & Tenant Board. I have had enough of the shitty ass condition that my apartment is in. Marra and I both decided this morning that enough is enough. I have moldy ceilings and no rent receipts for anything. I am so peeved that they keep promising that they will fix everything and never do. Literally we have been told again and again that it will be there to fix it. They even came by once with a camera and took NO pictures. WTF?! It's just not worth my time to fight with them anymore.

In other news, I am thinking about heading to the mall this weekend and pick myself up some new underwear and clothing. Now that Marra has her new job I will have lots more to spend and plenty more to play with as far as money goes. I need a new pair of shoes and at least a few more pretty things to wear. Once spring really rolls around I will be grabbing up a tonne of new dresses to wear and even more shorts. This summer I plan to start looking amazing.

I've also made plans to go to Palmer, Moose's and Rosie's this year if I get my bike. I am also going to go exploring different cities this summer and I want to make a few trips to Ottawa to scout out some new places for when I move up there. I figure if I make a few trips up there I will have a chance to set down some roots and make some friends. That way if Marra decides not to come with me to Ottawa, I'll have a support system.

Anymawho, I am going to go and hang around at work some more! Cheers!