What I know now.

When you get out on your own, you get bored really fast, and after a while you figure out it's because you spent 90% of your time doing shit for other people... So then you fill your time with stuff that seems pointless, but then you suddenly realize, that pointless stuff is actually the stuff you love, like painting, reading, dancing, and brushing cats.... Then you get happy.

Back!!!

So I know I have been absent for a while. I moved into my new place and my phone stopped working so I had 0 internet for the longest time. Thankfully my phone is back up and working so I can keep you updated from here.

The new place is pretty awesome. It has a few things to be fixed but it's pretty great all around. Beautiful hardwood floors and we finally got some window dressings up.

Marra and I are making due and things are working themselves out, slowly. Her boyfriend is pretty great and I am still single. It is a nice feeling.

I will post pictures soonish :)

Alone.

Is it so effin' bad that I want to be left alone? I have not had time to myself with the exception of 20 min-2hrs without someone in the same room or just outside of it. I honestly feel like I am being slowly suffocated.

I have always given others the time they want and need to be alone, and when I wasn't working, I made a point to go to my parents/friends/grandparents house to give my boyfriend time to do his own thing. Why am I not afforded the same courtesy? Every human being wants time alone in there own head... they don't want to be constantly bombarded with human contact. FFS.

Iunno, I guess I am just feeling like I never get to have time to think or breathe. Someone is always around and it's like I'm 2 again. I really don't need a babysitter and I just wish that people could just leave me alone.

All I really need to have time to sort myself out.

My weekend

My weekend has been spent lounging blissfully around the apartment. I made a point to learn some new recipes and I think I have come up with a few sauces for wings. I now just need to find a sauce for hot and suicide wings.

I got into a screaming match with Dana again. I just wanted some time alone and I wasn't being granted that courtesy. In fact it is a courtesy I hadn't been given in 6 months time. It is disturbing how much human companionship can drive you crazy after so much time together. I guess I finally yelled enough since he finally left the apartment and gave me the much needed alone time...

Either way, I feel a little less crowded and a little less crazy. Tomorrow I look forward to coming home from work and cooking myself a delicious meal of stuffed peppers and wings. Just sayin'