Sunday, 6 November 2011

A new consideration

I have tried dieting and exercise for a long time, it seems not much has worked for me. I have dropped the weight but it comes right back up again. I am really bothered by the way it looks on me and the way I feel. Easily winded and always tired, I don't look forward to another round with P90x or even a slow bout of yoga. I have tried dieting but it seems all the things I adore have to be cut out of my intake and I don't think that half of the ones out there are healthy. Cutting calories down to 900 a day, not ever touching carbs, fat free, sugar free, liquid only.... it all just rubs me the wrong way.

I am not a heavy smoker by any means and I rarely drink. My BMI is a whopping 35 and is only going up. I want to be able to do the things that everyone else can do and I want to look the way I feel. I have always wanted to climb a mountain or go on a hike, however with my current BMI and weight, I can't. I get tired and light headed and my whole body feels like it's on fire.

I know this may seem like a drastic step for only being 185lbs,(however I am only 5'1) but I am going to talk to my doctor about gastric bypass or Lapbands. All my friends think I'm crazy but I feel so unhealthy. I feel like something is so wrong that it cannot be corrected without other assistance. This will be a starting step towards a bigger life change.

If you have an opinion, leave it below.


  1. Those bands can cause so many other problems - personally, I'd say don't do it. Lose whatever weight you want slowly and naturally. You're still lovely, and I hope a little comment from a complete stranger proves that.

  2. Thank you, any contributions really help in my decision. I am definitely going to try and lose the weight naturally but if I can't I am looking into this as well. Thank you for saying that I'm lovely. It means more than you would think.

  3. I'm glad to hear it. I've been reading your blog for a while, and I do mean what I said. I'm a photographer from the other side of the world, and I can honestly say that you manage to be far more attractive than most of the people I shoot could be if they were butt-naked. You have an intelligence, creativity and sexy streak a mile wide that comes through in your postings - and I'm sure if *I* can see it, lots of other people can. There is an intensity about you that is difficult to put into words.

    I don't say any of this with an ulterior motive; only that you should know. Think of me as a little Phantom of the Opera, lurking about in the basement of the internet, who knows what actual beauty is when he sees it.

  4. I am glad you hear that someone reads my blog. This has been like and outlet and has a lot of innermost feelings in it.

    I am pleased that you are able to see me the way that I like to see myself. Some days I think it doesn't come through, but if a stranger can see it, I am sure those who mean the most to me see it as clear as day.

    You, Phantom, are welcome to lurk about my blog any time you would like. It will be nice to know someone thinks I'm beautiful and is interested in what I'm thinking.