I feel a lot like I am being shut out of my own relationship lately. I just need to kinda talk myself down from doing something rash and unpredictable. I hate feeling like I am an outsider and like everyone else has more of a clue that I do. It's almost like starting a race with a broken leg in my opinion.
In other news, I used up my last sick day yesterday. I was feeling pretty crappy today still but I didn't have a choice. However, I was thankfully afforded some mercy by the TM in charge of my attendance. Especially when I explained all the testing and screwing around that had come about with the new doctors and the pressing health issues. I am only at 1 point for the time being however, I will have to watch myself very carefully to ensure I don't incurring anymore. I need them for when I am having a shitty pain day.
I am hoping Marra is still around tonight, I need someone to paint elaborate shit on and laugh with. You can't even begin to imagine how stressful this stupid fucking job is. I hate having to base my job on other peoples opinions of me.... Stupid crap.
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I envy you for having a friend so willing to be a part of your artwork. Mine is through my camera, but unfortunately nobody ever wants to pose in the studio! It's a shame. I think artwork is so much more meaningful when shared with someone you care about. Even just mucking around can be great fun. Hang in there.
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